Nightmares

I wish you were
The monster under my bed
And not the one I want in it
I wish you were the bad guy inside of my head
Though it's hard to admit it
Want you to be everything that's wrong with me
Not the one who could fix this
I wish you were everything I hate in the world
Not the best person in it

Don't want to love 'cause then I'll misbehave
Don't want to think of you and feel safe
Don't want to drown if there's another way
So, at the end of the day

I hope you're in my nightmares
'
Cause to dream of you is unfair
I hope one day I don't care
'
Cause to dream of you is unfair

I want to wake in a cold sweat
Want to feel chills on the back of my neck
Want to feel like I need space
Want to feel all of my love is misplaced
Don't want to dream
'
Cause everything's not as it seems
And I'm so tired of waking
Don't want to feel this ashamed and
Just want to know that there's someone to blame

Don't want to love 'cause then I'll misbehave
Don't want to dream of you and feel saved
Don't want to drown if there's another way
So, at the end of the day

I hope you're in my nightmares
'
Cause to dream of you is unfair
I hope one day I don't care
'
Cause to dream of you is unfair